The one and only.

I love seeing my friends who have quite a number of siblings. Say; more than 2. I mean, their life might be chaotic (contoh terbaik: Reena and Dayah punya adik-beradik lah). Imagine during wedding preparation, gila best wey.

When I looked on myself, sadly I only have my sister. My older sister. We have 7 years of gap. Imagine that? And the best part is, we totally have different personalities. My sister doesn't know much about houseworks or living skills. Nak tengok dia gardening? Weh terbalik dunia kut. Nak tengok dia lap tingkap, mop lantai, masak, memang payah, once dia buat memang amazing lah.

But she has other qualities that I don't have. She knows how to save her money, and undeniably, she is very smart and very outspoken, very good in public speaking. She was one of those yang suka masuk pidato and public speaking and stuff while I'd never been into any. And her English is excellent. (but at home, my family don't converse in English at all, we all speak with our mother tongue; loghat Pahang and my dad sorang je loghat Terengganu). I can be said as shy compared to her. If you think that Faiza tak tahu malu, the sister is worst.

I remember when we were younger, we always fight with each other. Up to the extend that my dad will came up to us, pull our hair together and hantukkan kepala dua-dua. Imagine that? Terlampau banyak sangat gaduh. Tahap dengki masing-masing juga tinggi. Sorang dapat dua-dua mesti dapat. Gila teruk tak boleh blah perangai masing-masing.

My high-school years lagi teruk. Zaman baru nak up. Orang pergi ou, kita pergi ou, orang lepak downtown, kita lepak downtown, but my sister didn't have the opportunity saying that my parents were lagi strict during her time. So she went on controlling me, and nagging on stuff I did and what I wore.

But things changed you know. Once she got married, have children. We are closer. It's her that I will tell my problems to. Share my stories. Lagi-lagi with the existance of her husband yang super-cool, I feel more comfortable now at home. I was so terharu when she was there to back me up from my parents yang tak agree with something that happened to me. She was there giving me those supportive words.

And whatever conflicts among our relatives, she will be the only one who will support. But sadly my relatives just failed to see that.

Even after we had some misunderstandings, she will always tegur me back. Trying to talk to me. Aku ni keras hati tau tak? Dah marah, marah la. Tunngu la 2-3-4-5 hari baru nak bercakap.

I love her very much. Though I have my real blood sister, I don't think Mek (betapa T'ganu nye nama) will never be as her. I do have real blood siblings, a brother and a sister, but belum masa lagi kan nak jumpa. Even muka pun lagi sama compared to real blood siblings. Again, I appreciate her very much. Walaupun dari kecil dulu slalu gaduh, never once in my our lifetime, she slipped out those words such as "ure not my real sister anyway" Never. She never said that. She treats me like her real blood sister. And she will always be mine.

Kenapa malas sangat ni haa

Kenapa malas sangat nak study ni HHHAAAAAAA

Let pictures do the talking.

I like this picture the most

Location: Alexis Garden

Mode: Happy. Awesome service. The staffs are VERY nice and polite. Dan melayan kegilaan kami yang gila-gila remaja padahal umur dah 24 wey. More friends are getting engaged. Alhamdulillah.

Pictures were taken by Afnan.

Distances and social networking

Hello earthlings!

The whole day of Saturday has been spent on revising, studying and doing tonnes of exercises. The rest is Tawakkaltualallah.

Most of the time, I can't wait to finish my degree, get a job, settled down, and fly somewhere to further studies (you know, being the current economy situation now, most of us are adviseable to further studies to a higher level). I can't wait to globe trotting, taking pictures from everwhere around the world and learning different cultures and heritages everyday. Let's hope that dreams of mine will come true. InsyaAllah. Amin.

All right. Let's talk a bit on long-distance communication now. Having friends scattered all around the globe (oh yeah, I am a big fan of Eco-Challange in Facebook), but I have no friends in countries like Trinidad & Tobago, Gibraltar, Seyshells, Micronesia etc ekeseterraaa.Thehehe.

If we were in 3 decades ago, we might find it quite hard to keep in touch with relatives and friends. But now, let's give the biggest applause to the creation of internet and most importantly the social networking system; Friendster, Myspace, Facebook, blogging and the current latest fetish; Twitter.

Users are millions around the globe. It is up to individuals on which networking they want to be active in. Like me, I am more comfortable with Facebook. Sebab ada Pet Society, GEO challenge (kat atas tu silap tulis tapi wa malas nak amend), dan segala mala serigala challange yang ada sehinggakan kuiz-muiz yang melucukan.

Being our information widely spread all over the internet, it is very vulnarable to simply type in or post pictures about everything that happened in our daily lives. Hence, the creation of Cyber Law to protect users. Currently, Twitter has been a big hit. Ashton Kutcher has just received his 1 million'th (salah eja ini kut tapi biarlah sekali lagi wa dah malas) followers. As watched in E! news, the blue bird will always appear in the TV screen twittwitting flying around.

One of the hollywood actor opiniated that ; i don't do twitter and facebook because i don't want to know what everybody else is doing like "i-am-washing-my-hair", or "i am so lazy". And things like that.

I have to say that he has his point. Which is a strong one. But in social networking, we can always filter our postings. I did that. Because there are certain things in the internet that I do not want to know.

Another part that I don't really comprehend being in the social networking is adding up 1234-tell-me-that-you-love me more collections of friends. Do we actually need that thousands of friends? Do we need to have our pictures being seen by our so-called-friends? Does by approving you will make you my moon my man? (ok, sedang menyanyi di sini). Bahaya tau, main add add semua orang, nanti dia curi gambar kamu sebarkan baru tahu.

Social networking is really a good thing. Kurang rasa rindu kat Ezlyn, Dayah, Yusma, Massy and her baby Jood dan sekalian rumpai-rumpai laut yang study di oversea. thehehehe. We are always updated with each others' latest news and activities. But one thing for sure, we must be VERY careful with what we do, our postings and approving strangers. Tak semua orang baik zaman sekarang.

All right. This is quite a long post. Dah lama tak type panjang-panjang. Bahasa di atas tunggang-langgang sebab dah lama tak baca buku.

By the way, topic macam ciritordie. Esok ada exam. kangaroopatahkanshinguardamar betul lah exam hari Ahad!

What will be the best title?

Hello earthlings!

I have no idea what to put for the title. So you decide. Yesterday I sat for Taxation paper. It is the easiest subject but as usual I always go harewire and suddenly became so forgetful! But just give it a go and pray.

Next will be Economics. An easy subject too but still, will go harewire too.

This morning woke up feeling a bit tired. Maybe sebab semalam gardening (gardening wey!). Sebab malas nak pergi jogging, decided to do most of the houseworks. Seluar semua sudah tidak boleh pakai, nak beli yang baru pitis tak berapa nak ada. Now I do sit-ups everyday, angkat-angkat kaki, push ups and stuff. Tapi aktiviti makan besar still OOONNN hari-hari.

I just discovered that these days I depend too much on eyeliner. Never knew I will end up like this! To me if I don't line my eyes everyday, I look like a tak mandi person. So this one day, as seen on youtube, I tried to put on smoky eyes make-up on me.

Guess what happened?

I looked like an al-arqam and tabligh.

Potong sungguh. So no smokey eyes for me now or anymore.

Seen and Heard

Seeing how people now, the environment, the issues and conflicts; they are really convincing me that the world is coming to an end.

I am scared seeing how people party, I am scared of knowing the political conflicts and bribery issues, I am scared of the weather now, I am scared of witnessing and doing sinful things everyday but my Iman is just not as strong as Rasulullah s.a.w, I am coward for not being able to do anything on guiding to the right path. Astaghfirullah.

SubhanAllah.



This song is very beautiful. Sami Yusof is sesuatu!

Sha's Birthday

This post should have been put up since Monday but I just like to procrastinate lah.

By the way, celebrated Sha's (my classmate) birthday at Ole-ole Bali. Her fiance` (Fairuz) yang belanja. Her fiance` is one of the guys I met yang teramatlah baik dan sopan santun juga gentleman. It's hard to find superkind guys these days. Though he just got back from badminton training and with a tired face, he can still put up with us and with Sha especially yang sangat bubbly and chirpy (love u Sha).

Here are some of the pictures taken. Cupcakes sedap gila. Thank you Zaza! Now I am one of the regular customers. The base and the icing are both good. They are simple but still, beautiful to the eyes. The aunty sangat lah baik untuk melayan last minute order. Semoga business aunty ini bertambah bagus dan bagus.

cupcakes yang rasa nak beli tiap-tiap minggu buat stock di dalam peti sejuk.

Sha and Fairuz.

Sha's sweet treats!

The girls

The boys

I didn't get to eat a lot since baru lepas 4 doughnuts at J.co (syabas!). I know people will say I am kurus, but trust me, I need to loose my weight. My normal weight usually 50-53 and now it's freaking 57-58 (see how happiness brings me), but I still need sebab total fat accumulation in my body dah banyak, seluar semua tak muat. But I am still thankful that though naik badan, perut tak buncit lengan tak lambai-lambai, but naik kat kaki lah masalah dunia nya.

Ok, I am going to work out. (by doing house chores, nak pergi jogging malas bangun pagi, nak pergi gym takde duit baik save duit untuk makan)

She's a boy?

I first heard Tokio Hotel on World Tour playing guitar hero.I guess you know what's that. Duhh. It's a game yang agak addictive. But bila dah ada kat rumah macam tak heran sangat. My brother in law is the coolest person at home. First dia beli ps3, then ketuk-ketuk he bought a guitar hero, ketuk lagi sekali dia beli the whole set. Bagus. Tolong jangan pindah keluar dari rumah ini. Saya memerlukan orang cool seperti anda untuk bermastautin di rumah ini.



Saya confused ini lelaki atau perempuan punya suara? Sekali tengok VMA rupa-rupa nya lelaki bai. He must be veeerrry purrdyyy! But I bet if I ever bumped into him face-to-face, I will faint sebab takut. Scary sungguh mukanya. But I can say that I kind of like this band.

It's now study week and I am still weak!

Hello earthlings!

I am currently on my study break but I haven't been studying since Friday. Just started a few chapters on taxation with Fifi just now. I guess I just need to get my as* out of my dear room to study.

I just need to achieve better results this coming exam. I just HAVE to. HAVE tau tak?!!! InsyaAllah

Kadang-kadang (selalu juga), I really think I should learn how to sabar. And stop being nice to people. So far, all my friends are nice and are well-mannered. I've learned to be a helpful person thanks to Fifi, Reena, Nabila and ramai lagi lah. My friends have thought me alot you know. Seperti jangan berkira, when asking help, ask them nicely. So that's what I do. But I guess that people outside the circle just do not know how to react on this matter. (surprisingly, related person).

I just couldn't believe it happened to me. Rasa nak belasah lempang semua aje.

It's all good

I'm falling in love with Lykke Li..haishh..her songs and her music I mean.

Opened eyes.

I had a meeting (bukan yang formal itu ya?) with my dearest friend after class. The last time I met her was last year. Being such a bad friend I am, I just knew it has been a year since we last met.

I was left with advices which no one ever dares to tell me but she did which; totally useful, I feel relieved. Which;

A good friend is the one who reminds you of your God ; Allah s.w.t. If she/he doesn't do that, then you know the consequances. We won't loose anything.

This might sound a little bit sensetive here but this is just my responsibility to share ok. Honestly, all these times, I hardly accept muslims who drink though it has become such a norm these days but I still can't. Don't blame my kampungness/un-urbanized mind that I have. It is just my principle.But I still can accept people who don't perform their 5 times a day prayers. But to come and think about it, the 5 times prayers are the most important thing in Islam, and jika tak buat maka kafirlah kita. There is no such sayings as jika minum terus kafir kan? No I am not saying minum is allowable and totally acceptable, just which one is the main priority? Tak mengapa lagi if we are still not covering our aurah completely, or any sinful things that we are still doing, but performing our daily prayers is the most important thing as a muslim. VERY IMPORTANT AND NEED TO BE DONE. Solat itu kan tiang agama? Rukun Islam yang kedua bukan? Salah satu rukun takda, Islam tak? Tapi bila agama suruh sambut raya semua orang sambut pulak eh?

Gossiping/mengumpat is really a bad thing. So a friend of mine chooses not to meet too many people to avoid people talking bad things about other people. I admit, I still gossip. Duhh. Gossip itu best kan? Macam seronok. But after this, I will try to kurangkan on this InsyaAllah. Bila lepak gossip 5 jam pun rasa macam 5 minit. But to come and think about it, nasib baik lah saya gossip-gossip pun ala kadar and about orang buat hal ngan saya sahaja. Other than that, I don't think I have the reason to talk bad things about others who don't do sh*t on me. But kadang-kadang tu memang seronok kan? Tapi haish! Tak boleh tak boleh mesti kurangkan! InsyaAllah.

As a muslim, it is our responsibility to keep reminding each and everyone of us. But we always think that we are never good enough to advice people. But actually, no matter who are, we still have to keep on reminding. Ignore with what we are judged with. Just keep on reminding each other. Tak salah.

Stay positive. I realized that I've been downgrading myself ever since I started my degree. So I shall start being positive after this. Lagi-lagi waktu final ini. InsyaAllah.

No matter what happened, even if we have lost our hope and facing our fears, there is only one way at the end, which is to du'a to Allah s.w.t and let Him grant our prayers.

Ok that is all thank you. Let us keep reminding each and everyone of us for future betterments.

There is a way to be good again

Currently I am at UM. I used to hate this place (or still is), but nak buat macam mana, kalau kutuk UM nanti Zack buat muka.

I had a bad dream last night. And from that dream, I was about to give up. But today, lain yang jadi. Betul orang cakap, if mimpi buruk outcome dia contrast!

Sebenarnya saya sudah malas nak study. Worn out tapi paksa diri just because this semster's result yang akan letak dalam CV untuk practical. Nanti takde company nak ambil saya practical. Kalau ada pun tempat yang tak banyak dapat knowledge.

I need to find a job during this coming semester break. Motivational factor: Marc jacobs.

Ok, got to continue reading!

Sunday brunch

I appreciate my boyfriend

Hello earthlings!

Exam is approaching yet I haven't started anything. *sigh* I am really scared of not getting good results this coming exam. Like seriously wey, PWC, KPMG, E.Y are quite tough to get my butt in.

I keep telling myself to stay positive, to work hard but somehow the laziness just hit me. nyeh. Seeing mr.boyfriend is studying hard and working his as* out doing his research, I am still here not doing anything but bullying him. Honestly, selalu rasa segan dengan dia. He keeps saying "study study kata nak 4.0 (mmg susah kut, just motivational factor)" and I will end up doing stupid faces to him.

Somehow I just do not know how to thank him for every single thing he had done to me. I have to say that this is the best relationship I've ever had. I am so grateful to meet the nicest person. (semua gadis akan ckp begini pasal bf mereka). Not only he is nice, he is also likeable by friends and he respects my friends kerana dia tak pernah buat lawak yang akan buat my friends terasa.

Looking at me, I am not being a good girlfriend to him. Reasons:

• Selalu malas nak call dia
• Selalu malas nak reply msg dia padahal dia yang bayar bill.
• Selalu tidur dalam kereta while he is driving
• Selalu buat muka kat dia
• Selalu bad mood
• Selalu merajuk
• Selalu tertido while talking on the phone before sleep
• Mengigau masa ckp phone tu tak payah cakap lah kan
• Selalu menyusahkan dia
• Selalu tak tengok dia perform sebab banyak kerja. And kalau ada Aref and Zana or Fifi ke teman baru pergi. Bukan apa, malu banyak lah nak pergi.

But he has always been the superb boyfriend to me. Reasons;

• Always bukakkan pintu for me, pintu shopping mall ke, pintu kereta ke, segala pintu. That sometimes kita selalu main kejar-kejar sebab saya sendiri berebut nak bukak pintu untuk diri sendiri.
• Usually kalau lepak with my friends, and tiba-tiba kerusi meja tak cukup untuk my friends, he will be the 1st one yang akan pergi ambilkan kerusi/meja, bukan pekerja kedai makan.
• Kadang-kadang saya pun dengki kerana dia layan kawan-kawan saya macam dia layan girlfriend dia. Tapi nasib baik dia tak gatal.
• Tak pernah take opportunity tengok other girls/boobs, be it in front of me or behind my back. While Faiza always take the opportunity tengok laki lain and stare at women's boops.(saya bukan gay please cuma agak teruja saiz yang magnificient)
• If tengah hujan, dia selalu menyusahkan diri dia payungkan my head with his hands padahal sayang pakai tudung kut, kepala kena hujan InsyaAllah tak jadi apa-apa.
• He is the most understanding guy. My bestfriend, my studymate, my partner in-crime (after Fifi), my gossip partner, my ensyclopedia. He has the nicest heart. Malu tengok diri sendiri.
• Tal pernah penat layan saya tapi saya selalu penat nak jumpa dia. jahat kan ?

I need to overcome this. I need to be a good girlfriend. I know now that I am willing to do anything just to keep him.

Kadang-kadang terfikir, mengapa tak jumpa dia dari dulu haaaaa?

Ok la, this entry is quite jiwang tangkap leleh bai.

Perempuan.

I am thinking of some productive things to be accomplished during this 3 months break.

Learn to play some musical instruments.

and

Learn to sew my own baju kurung. Semangat dah nak pergi beli kain cotton dah ni.

Nanti if baju kurung jadi, I 'll post the pix insyaAllah, if takde tuh tak jadi lah tuh. ;P

So what else, cooking checked! baking checked! maintaining my own car checked! (belajar tukar absorber ok! but of course with the help of daddy dearest), house chores checked!(ini tak payah ckp la sbb mmg tak boleh la sepah or kotor).

Satu je belum "checked", being a total woman pakai heel/wedges. Hari tuh jatuh terjelapuk. Nasib baik depan boyfriend sendiri, langsung tak malu. kalau depan orang lain pengsan malu.

Birthday again!

Wow! So many friends were born around these dates! Last night celebrated my classmate's birthday. They are actually my study mate and classmates.

So I was told by a friend of mine who introduced me to his friends, that I looked and am garang. Well, I am actually flattened(huh? FLATTERED lah! banyak sangat makan flattened ayam penyet la ni) by that. I'd rather being a garang person instead of gedik. Seriously wey, at the age of 24, garang is in! We are not 18 or 19 anymore to gedik-gedik around with guys and control cantik.

I can be said as a friendly person but it depends la. I am sure many of us have encountered with the situation in the social networking say Facebook. Suddenly you have numbers of friend requests from total strangers. What's the whole point of adding people you don't know? Not even acquaintances? I think this people should stop making this habit of collecting friends. I usually ignore them, be it girls or guys. And I know, I am not the only who is doing this (ignoring people). I don't want strangers to comment my pictures with those tacky words. eww.

Maybe they should know what kind of a person I am; gila, garang kadang-kadang, suka kentut, suka burp, tak reti nak gedik-gedik sopan, bukan minah tudung stylo pelik, tak sopan sangat cuma sopan depan mak-mak orang sahaja say mak shida, mak fifi, mak fel, mak reena, mak fiza(mak angkat), dan segala mak-mak yang ada kat malaysia ni lah!

Eee please stop adding u bustrees, I don't need numerous comments on my pictures and any daily rumblings. yuck. I've found the one, and i've already have quality friends. Thank you bai.

new term

minah tudung stylo pelik - hijab,tudung girl who has weird sense of fashion. I don't want to elaborate more. Usually mereka ada geng. And semua sepesen. Sangat mengikuti trend tudung terkini. Bukan macam saya, pakai tudung lama.