We should know.

I just found this interesting article in the internet and would like to share this with my readers. I cut and paste the content tau.

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Interestingly, for the millions of people enrolled in yoga classes, the Islamic form of prayer has provided Muslims for fourteen centuries with some of yoga’s same (and even superior) benefits.

This simple form of “yoga” offers physical, mental, and spiritual benefits five times a day as Muslims assume certain positions while reciting Qur’an and athkar (remembrances).If you’re interested read further…

The Muslim prayer has five positions, and they all have a corresponding relationship with our spiritual and mental well being, according to modern scientific research.The Takbir and Al Qiyyam (mountain pose in Yoga) - found to improve posture, balance, and self-awareness. Normalizes blood pressure, breathing, thus providing many benefits to asthma heart patients.

Placement of hands on the chest during the Qiyyam position - activates the nerve pathway, which directs our awareness of self in the world and controls the health of the muscular system, skin, intestines, liver, pancreas, gallbladder and eyes.When the hands are held open for du’a, they activate the heart ; center of the feelings of love, harmony, and peace, and to control love and compassion. It also governs the health of the heart, lungs, thymus, immune system, and circulatory system.

When Muslims recite the Qur’an, old thoughts, feelings, fears and guilt are released or healed, and blood pressure and stress levels are reduced. Some specific sounds, in fact, correspond to major organs in the body. Vibrations made when pronouncing the long vowels, 'A', 'E' and 'U,' stimulated the heart, lungs, and the thyroid, pineal, pituitary, and adrenal glands.The position of Ruku (forward bend) stretches the muscles of the lower back, thighs, legs and calves, and allows blood to be pumped down into the upper torso. It tones the muscles of the stomach, abdomen, and kidneys. Forming a right angle allows the stomach muscles to develop, and prevents flabbiness in the mid-section. It also promotes a greater flow of blood into the upper regions of body – particularly to the head, eyes, ears, nose, brain, and lungs – allowing mental toxins to be released.

The Sujud - activates the person’s spiritual connection with the universe around them and their enthusiasm for spiritual pursuits. This nerve pathway is also correlated to the health of the brain, nervous system, and pineal gland. Controls basic human survival instincts and provides essential grounding. This helps to develop levelheaded and positive thinking along with a highly motivated view of life, and maintains the health of the lymph and skeletal systems, the prostate, bladder, and the adrenal glands.

The position of Al Qaadah) -(Thunderbolt Pose in yoga), which firms the toes, knees, thighs, and legs. good for those prone to excessive sleep, and those who like to keep long hours. Furthermore, this position assists in speedy digestion, aids the detoxification of the liver, and stimulates peristaltic action in the large intestine.Last, but not least, the by turning the head towards first the right and then the left shoulder in the closing of the prayer - This nerve path is linked to the throat, neck, arms, hands, bronchials, and hearing – effecting individual creativity and communication.

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Awal Muharram.

Selamat menyambut Awal Muharram. May this year will bring us closer to Allah The Almighty. I am scared. The signs of the Judgement Day (Qiyamah) are very obvious now but we are still ignorant about that.

I am ashamed of myself too as I am still not in the know about the Islamic terms and phrases.

The list will be very long if I were to list everything that I am ashamed of. Things that I do, say, look,wear and feel daily.

But I am still here doing nothing to change anything.

*sigh*

Goodbye 2008.

Year 2009 is approaching. Time flies very fast, even faster than a bullet train in Japan. As usual, when we mention about new year, we might be brainstorming on the resolution as well. But heck no, I think resolution does no good for me since I am not the one who will stick to that.

All I can say, year 2008 has been a very great year for me. I am not going to list them. Just keeping them to myself. I might hurt some lives whom apprently might not had the same thing or two with mine. Understood that luck does not appear to everyone and who knows 2009 might not be the year for me.But, cheers to all of us for being able to keep up with ups and downs!

We are getting older. I am turning 24 and this-is-not-a-hint. It came across my mind that I haven't been doing many things nor experiencing many one-of-a-kind moments through out my living life. I should get started on that!

Other than that, read more books read more books read more books.

Class is starting on Tuesday after a month of holiday. I should work harder right? My result is not at satisfactory by the way though I passed all papers. It is just not enough.

p/s: missing all my friends abroad.

I believe in dreams.

I believe in dreams. And I always believe that if I want my dreams to be happened, I should work for it. And I must start working working on it.

Sanity.

I enjoy reading Paulo Coelho's books. They keep me sane. Looking forward for the 6th book!

One of the things.

I'm not the type who is into hi-tech mobile phones but this time, I really really really fell in love with this one.(Ever since I saw Tasha's, I totally fell in love with it, lagi-lagi Tasha ada promote that it is really useful) I know this is beyond my earnings because I am a student and I don't have a business to deal with people daily,furthermore, I have this bad luck thing when it comes to mobile phone and water. But still, this is a powerful tool.

It is not just for business purposes. It's moreeee than that.

I need to save every penny now. :)

Syukur.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.

I thought I was about to fail any of the papers but it went quite well. Syukur Syukur. It is totally unexpected. Pointer saya juga naik.

Mungkin Starbucks itu tempat yang bagus untuk menelaah pelajaran. Mungkin selepas ini boleh belajar di Starbucks lagi. Habislah duit.

Tagged by Iza!

1) Do you think you're hot?

With this pale and full of enlarged pores? No I don't think so, but I am happy with the imperfections.

2) Upload your favorite picture of you!

3) Why do you like that picture?
It's a self-potrait picture. And my eyes is actually telling something of you can read my eyes.

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?

Last Wednesday.

5) The last song you listen to?
Ashes and Wine

6) What are you doing right now besides this?
Listening to the song. Still.

7) What name you would prefer besides yours?
I never think of any. Yet.

People to Tag
Reena

E'en

Zaza

Yusma

Ezlyn

8) Who is number one?

Reena. (hihi) my bestfriend with a good heart.

9) Number three is having a relationship with?
With someone I know. Who can sing very well! (thehehe right?)

10) Say something about number five?

One of my bestfriends. We have been through a lot since high school. A brilliant doctor, dancing queen, and my source of opinions when I need one. Words couldn't describe how great she is as a friend.

11)How about number four
My Idol. She taught me a lot. Studying at the same place as Number.5 which means; I miss them both so much. My sunshine.

12)Who is number two.

Someone I knew since primary school. She's a smart and tough person who had been through a lot and managed to overcome everything by herself.

Quotes.

• Tragedies do happen. We can discover the reason, blame others, imagine how different our lives would be had they not occurred. But none of that is important: they did occur, and so be it. From there onward we must put aside the fear that they awoke in us and begin to rebuild.
• A warrior is always aware of what is worth fighting for. He does not go into combat over things that do not concern him, and he never wastes his time over provocations
• You will see that, in order to do the important things in life, at times one must allow oneself to do nothing.
• Anyone can become angry - that is easy, but to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not easy.
• Be content with your lot; one cannot be first in everything
• Making mistakes simply means you are learning faster.
• Life is short and we never have enough time for gladdening the hearts of those who travel the way with us. Oh, be swift to love! Make haste to be kind.
• I am responsible for my own wellbeing, my own happiness. The choices and decisions I make regarding my life directly influences the quality of my days.
• If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain
• All political parties die at last of swallowing their own lies.
• The true meaning of religion is thus, not simply morality, but morality touched by emotion
• Drop the last year into the silent limbo of the past. Let it go, for it was imperfect, and thank God that it can go.
• If you are pained by external things, it is not they that disturb you, but your own judgment of them. And it is in your power to wipe out that judgment now.

I know that I have made a mistake. So as something to cure my confused mind, those quotes have strengthen my faith within myself. For every mistakes done, it will be ok. It's part of learning about life.

Unproductive.

I spend the whole day and night on my bed not feeling well. I should be playing guitar heroes by now. It looks like it needs a friend. Read books is another option. It needs to be flipped! Zack is busy this whole week setting up for the rocktheworld.

Bagus juga demam, and Wednesday might not be a good day.I think you know why.

Picnic on Sunday morning.

My friends and I had picnic at somewhere around KL. Good company, foods! and foods!!! and we all had fun under the sun. Well, it was cloudy yesterday, a perfect weather to have a picnic outside!

We took tonnes of pictures while blowing bubbles (I stole my nephew's). This is my very first time having picnic (di taman ye) and we would like to do it again!

I miss her already.

Last night, Tokchu slept over our house. In my room. And she stayed at our house this whole day. Having her here, even though it was only for a day is already enough to make me happy. I miss her presence in our house. She was my guardian, my nanny, my closest companion. She is closer to me than my mum.

And now she is no longer staying with us since year 2006 after 20 years of living with us and raising me up. Having her around even though it was only for a short while, is enough to make me smile and talk more than 1000 words in this house. So today. I have someone to talk to in this house, someone to share my countless stories, and someone who I can show pictures of my other half and friends from my lappy.

Now she has gone back to my uncle's house where she is currently staying. And I miss her already.

My heart is crying out loud begging her to stay here but she has 3 growing grandchildren to be taken care of.

Haish, kan bagus kalau boleh tinggal kat kampung. Hari-hari relatives ada. Tak pun pindahkan satu kampung tinggal kat rumah ini. Hari-hari borak besar, gelak besar, jemaah sama-sama, makan sedap.

One of my 2008 resolution is to be closer with my family and relatives. And Alhamdulillah, I've managed to achive that.

Aidiladha and Engagement at Kampung.

Hello readers. I am back from Kampung for Aidiladha celebration. My closest cousin too got engaged on Tuesday. So another kenduri next year. The whole family and relatives will be expecting kenduri every year starting from last year since we all have grown up and are collecting our money for our wedding preparation including me even though my time lambat lagi.

Amin's Birthday.

I was the so-called-mak-andam yang main hentam and photographer yang tak professional.

It was raining cats and dogs but not on the engagement day itself. Maybe my Kakngah is not a fan of budu. In the East Coast area, for we believe that when someone likes to eat budu, there will be heavy downpour on his/her wedding day. So I guess during my wedding day, boleh jadi hujan sangat lebat sebab saya terlampau suka budu. (yeck me if you want).

I managed to finish reading 2 books. A proof that I did not spend my time in the kitchen with my aunties. Guess that the weather has caused me to be soooo pemalas.

More pictures will be uploaded in Facebook.

Friday.

makan.

Saya ingat spesies ini dah pupus.

traffic jam. I hate KL.

now everyone can fly!

*going to miss him. A lot.*

Well well.

Tonight is the first night that I stay at home. Usually, I will hang out with Fifi, Zack, Afiq and the rest and balik by 12. With the amount of books and magazines that I've already bought, I have no reason not to stay at home and do my readings but well well..life will be too dull to stay at home. I'd rather go out and meet new faces and friends.

The thing about making friends is, it helps you on views toward life. You see, I don't really choose my friends, except if they can be such a pain in the as*, why bother to stick around?

Last week, my mother mocked me for having TOO MANY friends which to me, there is nothing wrong with that. What can I do, I can be described as a friendly person. (but it depends). But as I mentioned in my previous post, mothers will give the worst advice as a friend but the best as mothers. Mothers know better.

I've learned that we should not talk about other people too much. Well, who doesn't? I do that once in while. But I realized that, while we are busy talking about people behind thier backs on what they do, what they wear and what they say, they actually don't even talk about us at all. Why are we being such pessimistic while we can be optimistic? Why are we having grudges on other people, while they are actually having good thoughts about us? Ok la, even if they did talk behind our backs pun, just let them be. We just have to mind and enjoy our own business kan?

There are people we can trust and those we can't trust. So we were told, keep your friends close, but keep ur enemy closer. It's true. In this material world, it is hard to differentiate between an enemy and a friend.

I am glad that I am surrounded with great friends all over. Alhamdulillah syukur.

Bukan tak suka.

Mak selalu tegur, mengapa rakan-rakan saya lebih ramai tak bertudung sedangkan saya bertudung? Bukan tiada langsung, ada la, cuma tak ramai, maybe because of where I went for my secondary school. Bukan kurang gemar mereka yang bertudung, cuma ada beberapa perkara yang buat saya ada some distance with them.

1. Mereka suka jaga tepi kain orang. Just concentrate on your life will you? Kita sebok-sebok nak tahu or talk about oher people walhal other people don't talk about us at all pun. Seriously, there is more to life.
2. Mereka terlampau berkias. Macam nak korek cerita pun mengapa mesti pakai bahasa tersirat? Just say something straight to the point la.
3. They like to look at people from up to toe. Ye kadang-kadang orang lain pun stylo juga, bukan kau sorang aje.
4. Meraka suka buat bising dalam surau. Talk to their friends as if they are the only one with friends and issues.
5. Some of them don't perform their prayers pun. Orang yang merokok pun sembahyang tahu tak? Lepas tu nak pandang-pandang slack kat smokers, merokok lebih baik dari mengumpat tahu tak? (ok ini agak bodoh la)
6. Mereka suka baca novel-novel cinta which bahasa rojak, nama nak best aja walhal tiada apa-apa yang boleh change their lives kecuali keep on berangan. You know, a good book will be able to change a life or a view on life.
7. Some of them are boyfriend stealers. Beware.
8. Mereka berlagak baik dan sweet. Padahal belakang taktau lah.
9. Mereka juga suka tengok orang tengah bersiap lepas sembahyang. Jangan pandang boleh? Nak tiru la tuh!
10. When it comes to hygene, they don't really take care of it. Just smell their heads. And you will know.

Tapi tak semua orang macam itu.

Bukan tak suka, ada yang baik semestinya, just most of the time macam tuh. If tak agree diam aja, sebab this is just my view and I have my bad sides too.

No more liar liar pants on fire.

I was about to type the title as changes in season but I think it is not very suitable for the content that I am about to blog about. I would like to blog on changes; well peeople changed. Be it for better or for worse. You see, I changed too. A lot.

Last time, I used to be so secretive. Especially with my mother. I have no idea why I was hiding. Finally I realized that, there is nothing to hide about. (but kadang-kadang problems terpaksa simpan sebab mak saya punya solution kurang menyenangkan). I had to lie to hide. And it was stupid I know. I am glad that things have changed. I've been telling my mother every single thing, I don't lie anymore. I report to her everyday. And it feels so good to actually tell my mum about everything. (lagi best bila boleh mention nama Zaakir/Zack terang-terang).

I know, mothers; they will give the worst advice as a friend but the best advice as a mother. Sometimes and MOST of the time, her advices will not be something that I expect to hear. Maybe that's the whole point of being a mother cum advisor cum pencetus kemarahan. But at the end of the day, by listening to her advice and nags, things will turn out good.

I asked my mum's opinion before things get more serious between my other half and me. Just to make sure that she will like my choice, kerana restu itu sangat penting. So Alhamdulillah, she has approved.

But once in a while, I do lie to her when it comes to money. Hihihi. I always lie that I have money even though ada beberapa ringgit aje, sebab malu nak mintak duit.

It is just that, things have changed. A lot. Yeah, I might come home late around 12 am almost every night dengan baju berbau asap rokok. And the next morning I will tahan myself listening to her painful nags which might caused me to cry once in while. But in the end she will feel bad because I will bodek by doing house chores. Dulu sangat suka menjawab. Pantang dimarah terus jawab. If it was a written essay, I bet the whole book is insufficient. I am glad that I have my aunties who will rub my back when ever my mum nags at me by saying "Sabar Ijah..sabar..jgn menjawab". I am glad that I have them. If it is not because of them, I will not changed.

The thing about mothers is, their words might be painful most of the time, but it will be a good thing. Be it in long-term or short-term. Let the time decides for you. Just like remedies, they are bitter but they will heal the pain inside.

Mothers=remedies.

Aunties= cheerleaders.

That's why we are in a family!

Ok, aku merepek di sini.

Scared.

This is a bit too early for me to feel this way. But I've been thinking about it, worrying about it everyday now. And because of that, I've started printing past years' questions and finding books for the coming subjects. I know, I have been saying this everytime a semester ends but this time, I have to keep my words.

I was unable to complete 2 major financial accounting paper's questions. Which is something that is quite bad. It was a total humiliation to me. Not only that paper but also happened to another 2 subjects. When I was about to give up in the exam hall I said to myself "Don't be a sore loser Faiza. Don't be" So I tried and tembak. But if we depend on tembak in exam hall, how long tembak-tembak shoot shoot will guarantee your victory?

I am still scared by the way. Scared to face the fact that I have to resit any papers. Argh!!

Why I hate holidays.

Kerana sumber kewangan agak terhad. Noktah.

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So far, semester break has been good. Kalau tengah banyak pitis lagi bagus boleh road trip. By the way, I don't really have anything interesting stuff to blog about. Just some frustration with something which is my handphone. I always this problem when it comes to handphone/gadgets and water. Last week, we went to Pavilion and it was raining heavily. Jadi kami berlari-lari anak ke BB Plaza since Afiq parked his car there. Tengah lari memang sangat terbaik handphone jatuh dalam hujan. Jadi salah satu handphone rosak.

Jadi, bila diingat kembali, sudah banyak gadgets yang rosak because of water. My first Sony T1 digicam rosak during hujan lebat in Arau, and my handphone at that time pun sama, then motorola rosak tumpah sup, then another handphone pun rosak tertumpah orange juice and to conclude, be it handphone mahal or murah, akan rosak sebab air.

So, lepas ini pakai handphone cikai lagi senang. Kan? Rosak pun tak sakit hati sangat.

For the most wonderful person.

To my bestfriend, Reena Suriani!

Happy Birthday to the most wonderful and greatest person I've ever known. Hope you will have a great celebration this year, and may all your wishes and dreams come true.

Thank you for being such a great, sincere friend. You are not just a good friend, but you are a best friend of mine, apart from that, you have never failed in being such a good daughter to both of your lovely parents, a great sister to your "chaotic"(joking!) siblings, a wonderful girlfriend to Faiz and not to forget, a wonderful friend to us too!

Happy Birthday Reena dearie. May Allah s.w.t merahmati anda kerana orang baik seperti anda selalu disayangi Allah s.w.t.

Hello earthlings.

Hello there earthlings! My holiday has just started. Though I am not feeling good because of my accounting paper, but I should just live the life and if anything goes beyond my expectations, I will just accept it.

So yesterday was good. Went dinner with family after exam.

Today will be good and so as tomorrow. I have so many things planned in my head.

To do list:
Kemas bilik. If boleh cat sekali.
Kemas rumah. Polish furniture, lap sana lap sini.
Read more books.
Travel jalan-jalan with COTY. (Fifi Afiq)
Print all past years' questions for next semester's subject. (ini dah berapa kali punya azam ni)
Take more pictures.
Exercise more. Pergi jogging balik. Perut dah ada sikit. Thighs are bigger.Macam malu.

Oh well, things have been good so far walaupun exam. I feel good when I ignored certain stuff. Not that I am being heartless, just that I'd rather ignore than learning about small things that I will not understand why it happened. It's not that I don't appreciate, tah! certain things are better left unsaid. Like I said in the previous entry, I don't need to disclose my problems and and let the whole world informed about it. I might hurt anyone if I do so right?

Going to enjoy my holidays yaw.

Ramalan bintang-bintang

Kamu percaya ramalan bintang-bintang? Saya tidak pernah percaya pun. Sebab Islam tidak galakkan. Tapi suka baca kerana kadang-kadang macam kebetulan.

Contoh:

Kami dua-dua kononnya berbintang Capricorn. Secara kebetulannya kami banyak persamaan. Jadi mahu percaya atau tidak? Lebih jangan percaya ramalan bintang-bintang ini. Untuk suka-suka boleh la.

Apa yang sama? Salah satunya adalah :
kami gentel telinga sebelum tidur.

Tapi orang-orang Capricorn agak semacam bukan? Semacam seperti kami lah.

My mistake.

I always wonder how my past has affected my present. Somehow I do regret of my past but mistakes are mistakes, they are done, became a history, and history has shaped me.

I just knew that my roomate back when I was in Asasi UM has just graduated for her Master's Degree. And currently she is preparing her application to continue with her Phd. How cool is that? Well not cool la, (macam kita buat sesuatu sebab nampak cool and different, so bukan cool) but more to like something which can make our parents proud and even ourselves proud. At the age of 23, dah sambung buat Phd. If I were her, my parents will have the widest smile!

She was in the same position as mine, took Sains Hayat, but she passed and I flung! Because I usually can't face the humiliation (macam besar sangat case ni), I decided not to repeat my matriculation but started things all over again.

I was really sad. I cried when I knew my results but yang terkejutnya, I thought my parents were about to scold me but they didn't.

I ALMOST applied for quantity surveying at Taylors. Since my parents were still working at that time so it wouldn't be much of a trouble to pay the expensive fees. But still, I was thinking twice because I was afraid if I don't manage to perform well, I'll be like one of those ungrateful kids.

When I was informed that Uitm intake was opened, I decided to just apply for Uitm even though since I was in school, tidak pernah terfikir pun mahu menuntut di situ. So I applied for courses that I like (something in Architecture field) but ended up in Accounting field which is totally not my cup of tea. Gave it a try and Alhamdulillah accounting isn't that bad after all. Knowing an accounting degree holder agak senang nak cari kerja (InsyaAllah), sampai sekarang pun masih menelan pahit manis benci accounting. Because I believe that we don't have to do things we like or enjoy just to survive. As long as we are sincere in things we do, Allah s.w.t will always help and guide us. So alhamdulillah.

Sepanjang my studying in accounting, I've been trying very hard not to repeat any subjects. It's like tidak mahu sejarah berulang lagi (seperti lagu newboys yang dulu selalu nyanyi ngan Has). What I did in Asasi is so unacceptable. When I look back on how I study, huk ela, patutlah failed. Main-main je lebih, Science isn't that hard and it is quite easy to score jika dibanding dengan belajar accounting yang sungguh memeningkan akal fikiran ini.

But still, I will pursue my Master's degree in the field of business.

During my practical training last year, I knew that accounting is quite suitable for me. Mungkin juga saya dah terbiasa kerja berat-berat dan kira duit (terima kasih bodyshop sebab beri saya pengalaman kerja semacam anjing dan kuli batak).

So back to the story, I know I shouldn't fret on my past mistake, but I realized that if it is not because of my mistake, I will not be like what I am today. Even though I am not doing something I really like, but at least I enjoy doing it, and I have a life and my life is not boring.

Masuk Uitm pun was not a mistake. Jika tidak masuk Uitm kat Arau sana tu, maybe I wouldn't have the opportunity to get to know friends all over Malaysia. Jika tidak saya mungkin akan bergaul dengan orang-orang Pj atau Kuala Lumpur sahaja. I am glad that I have different types of friends. They have made me into a better person. It's true like Sue Anna Joe stated in her blog saying that if dari sekolah sampai sekarang masih berkawan dalam kelompok yang sama, nampak sangat orang itu tidak pandai bergaul.

I'm glad. I am grateful. I am happy for who I am even though I don't have everything or less than a quater of material things that the world could offer me, I am glad that I am kampung too.

Basically, I am glad of what my mistakes done in the past. Because my mistakes have moulded me into who I am today.

Wed, war and when will I win?

Another Saturday. Relatives are here for my cousin's graduation. Another cousin is getting engaged Alhamdulillah. In other words ; nasik minyak and jamuan besar-besaran di kampung are on thier way! I've always love family weddings, well who doesn't? The only get-together where the whole relatives will be at one place, under one roof.

Oh well, Law paper yesterday was so-so. Pity Faiza she did not memorize all the cases but other questions turned out quite ok. I'm seeing the glass of milk as half empty now, not that I love being a pessimist, but I should stop hoping because it leads to frustration. I don't want to frown at the end of the day because frowning and fretting do no good to me. Oh ya, I should read more books. But time isn't allowing me to do so. As a replacement, I should take the Newsweek subscribed by my brother in-law just to feed my thirst for general knowledge as well as sharpen my vocabularies, but I think it'd be better for me to grab my accounting books.

Fine, perang mungkin bermula sekarang. Another 2 killer papers coming up. I just hope that I can do well though the possibility for me in doing so is quite blurry. I am being a pessimist again. Kita mesti cuba bukan? Jangan hanya merungut tapi yang penting kita mesti all-out.

(the wonderpet's song is in my head now)

It's funny to see girls around my age following the series and humming the theme song wherever they go. It is really ok to watch the series once in a while with your nephews/nieces/cousins but if the series are watched as if it is Heroes, GG, OTH and etc, what are they thinking?

**geleng kepala and faint!**

Mahu apa lagi?

Saya selalu rasa, bahawa saya terlampau banyak keinginan. Macam-macam keinginan. Tapi saya perlu tahu, saya bukan insan serba boleh. Dijadikan sebagai khalifah di muka bumi ini pun ada sebabnya bukan? Kita bukan hidup untuk bergembira sahaja. Tapi tidak salah untuk punyai keinginan dan harapan.

Kadang-kadang, saya harap sangat saya pandai melukis. I mean, drawing someone's face, scenery, animals and things like that. Or taking good pictures for example as well as good in editing. Bukan saya tak pandai melukis, cuma saya hanya pandai lukis lukisan-lukisan bodoh sahaja. Lagi seronok jika dapat pursue my studies in architecture, itulah, dulu dah dapat tapi tak pergi. Menyesal tak sudah. Jadi arkitek dalam angan-angan. They said, people who can't draw, do photography. Tapi itu nanti-nanti lah saya usahakan. Sebab photography tengah trend and it is the in-thing now. Jadi saya segan. Sebab nampak macam poyo.

Saya juga berharap sangat saya hot dan ramai orang nak kawan dengan saya. Bila hot, mungkin saya boleh selalu membuang masa di pub-pub eksklusif sambil banyak mata-mata yang memandang kerana mesmerized and awed by the hotness instead of pandang-pandang kerana pelik "apa budak hodoh ini buat di sini?".

Berharap juga, mempunyai otak yang bergeliga. Tak perlu lah saya bekerja keras untuk dapat 3.5 keatas untuk belajar accounting ini yang bukan saya punya pilihan hati tetapi pilihan market. Mengapa market? Mengapa saya sanggup buat? Kerana bagi saya, biarlah saya bersusah payah sekarang, buat sesuatu yang bukan saya suka tetapi, dengan ijazah accounting ini, saya senang nak cari kerja. Kerana iyelah, saya bukan golongan-golongan happening, mesti saya lebih suka kerja di pejabat dan mengadap computer. Saya nerd. Saya tahu, classmates saya juga kadang-kadang cakap saya ni terlampau rajin suka pergi library. Mungkin sebab cintahati tidak belajar di tempat yang sama. Jika tak, aku pun sama naik.

Selain itu, saya juga berharap yang saya ini kaya. Jika kaya, tak perlu bersusah payah nak kumpul duit beli sesuatu. Mintak sahaja kepada mak atau ayah. Kan senang. Bukan mak ayah saya orang susah, cuma saya tak suka mintak-mintak barang lalu menyusahkan mereka. Saya rasa kita sudah dewasa dan tahu menilai. Mereka sendiri bersusah-payah waktu muda to achieve the current living, I just think it is unfair to them if keep on spoiling ourselves. I think I have to do my part of learning about life to feel how it is like to live like the unfortunate ones. Kalau kaya, mungkin saya boleh membuang duit Pavilion, The Gardens dan pusat membeli-belah sewaktu dengannya. Kan seronok jika boleh beli-belah di Marc Jacobs ataupun segala baju-baju yang ada dalam In Style magazines. (tak main lah baca cleo,iklan je lebih tak cantik pula tu)

Agak bagus juga jika saya ini lebih suka duduk di rumah dan beribadat di samping meluangkan masa bersama keluarga. Sekarang saya sedar, keluarga saya sangat rapat dengan saya rupanya. Mereka bestfriends baru saya selain cintahati yang juga merupakan girlfriend, bestfriend, boyfirend, shopping friend, makan-makan friend, kamus, ensyclopedia dan semua lah.

Jadi sekarang mahu apa lagi? Biasalah, manusia tidak pernah cukup. Tapi sebenarnya saya sudah cukup bersyukur dengan apa yang saya ada. Lebih baik begini. Jika terlampau inginkan semua, baik tak payah hidup. Because a person is already rich if he/she knows how to live thier life and being thankful of what she/he has without craving for more.

Maaf jika banyak berbahasa melayu, biasalah, saya kan orang melayu, hidup cara melayu, makan nasi dan budu hari-hari, dan semuanya melayu lah. Kecuali saya bukan melayu malas.

p/s: Sebenarnya sebab grammar saya agak teruk semenjak tiga menjak ini. Dah lama tak membaca buku. Oleh itu, lebih baik berbahasa melayu agar tidak mengelirukan orang. Tak perlu ikut trend.

Let pictures do the talking 1

Exam mode. 3 papers to go. The last 3, agak membunuh. Kecuali Law.

I just need to absorb every law terms. Even though Law is not my languange, but as long as it is a reading subject, saya tidak akan membenci law.

But this subject left me with frustration. Argh! I'm just not good in Maths! Even though I am a lefty.

Come'on.

Actually I have nothing to blog about pun. Just to keep my mind away from studying statistics. Tired already. Been studying since morning. And currently I have no idea what I've studied. And I am really scared now.

Oh, I am thinking of selling off my camera! After a few open houses, saw almost everyone has the big and chunky camera, it's like trend now. Not for the interest. And after this gadget apa lagi yang akan menjadi kegilaan? Psp? Apple's stuff?

We can know it's an interest or a trend by just observing kedai camera. If kedai camera banyak school kids, then it is a trend yaw. No offense. But I think everyone knows about this right?

Tidak kuat lagi.

Dulu, mungkin saya boleh stay up sampai pukul 3 pagi dan bangun seawal subuh. Hampir setaip hari.

Sekarang, masih boleh, tetapi bila masuk hari 5, saya jatuh demam. Seperti sekarang. Sat for 2 papers, so far Alhamdulillah. Please give me A's for that. I need them a lot. Last semester's result was terrible.

But, itulah, mungkin saya sudah tua, mungkin sudah lama tidak pergi work-out. Senang jatuh sakit, penat sikit demam. Ye lah, have to face the fact that I am not as strong as I used to be. But still I have to force myself. If it is not me then who else will do for me?

Please, do this for the sake of my parents.

F*ck!

I don't intend to swear. Well I used to swear a lot. But it all happened with this one particular incident 2 years back when I decided to stop swearing. (but once in a while of course unintentionally slipped out from my mouth).

I went to study somewhere out of my house after lunch since I couldn't concentrate anymore and my brain couldn't absorb anything further. So I went to my favourate usual place alone since the other half is in Singapore (I have the longest day today).

I did my reading alone, serenely until this one particular tudung girl with short sleeved t-shirt came in, ordered a caremel frap and joined her chinese friend who is an iBook user. And she uses Dell. (well this is no important point here, just to describe the situation). It was freezing cold inside there but melting hot outside, so I was left with no choice but to stay inside and get all fidgety. The annoying part was, the tudung girl was speaking so loud (as usual la, that explains why prayer rooms are always noisy), I can actually hear every story she was telling in detailed. I wish I could join her (hye! Im your new friend, I know what problems you are facing now!).

The thing that bothered me was she mentioned "f*uck" in almost every sentences. It reminds me of my past how I used to swear a lot. But I didn't get all annoyed by that actually except for the fact that her volume was quite loud for a calm place like that. Hearing her saying f*ck in every sentence sounds kind of cool though. Hahaha.

f*ck fu*ck fc%k @#%&%$!

Maybe I should get back to that.

Nyehhh. No I won't.

Knowing that I've hurt a soul last time by just swearing. I didn't know that it would cause so much pain which is kind of hard to forgive. Luckily I managed to refrain myself from keep doing it.

p/s: because of that girl, I had to study management with my ears plugged. Eavesdropping is no good.

It reads my heart.

“... joy and sorrow are inseparable. . . together they come and when one sits alone with you . . . remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.”

-Kahlil Gibran

I've been trying to ignore my feelings, but I am no superwoman. Let's just ignore again and wait. Next time when the world is turning its back on you, then you are always welcome my friend. Always.

Sisters in Pink!

our faces might be in the same features becuase this is in Terengganu. I came 100 percently from there remember?

Why do I like pink? Since school, I can be said as one of those girls yang suka kumpul barang-barang in pink. I don't care though some people might say pink is so girly and mengada-ngada or bimbo you name it. It is not wrong right to idenitfy what you like and not hiding about it.

Since I was a kid, my mum always buy me stuffs in pink whenever she went outstation. Mine in pink and my sister's in blue. But dari dulu lagi, my sister and I suka fight and berebut. Pernah sekali our hairs were pulled by Ayah due to unstoppable fights and berlawan-lawan cakap. Akhir sekali saya menangis and my sister diam. Those were the days. Even though our age gap is 7 years, our parents still beli barang yang sama for both of us. Because nanti gaduh. What I have she has, and what she has I don't really have, because most of the time, saya dapat second hand stuff from her.

Dulu, our parents thought that I like pink and she prefers blue. Tapi sebenarnya, she has turned into liking pink since I don't know when. So now, if I want to buy her stuff (which is jarang la kut, sebab she's an engineer who can afford to buy her own stuff), I will buy something in pink. Sama pun biarlah. Dari dulu lagi kami pakai barang yang sama.

She was my idol back in primary school. Seeing her while I was growing up, what she did back then was something that I must follow. She's smart, UPSR dia straight, PMR dia straight, SPM dia pun banyak A's. Bila lihat kembali, I got straight A's too but SPM sedikit kecundang la. And she's attractive too. When she entered Sri Aman , memang apa yang dia buat semua cool. Except bila dia tukar masuk MRSM Terendak, dia sudah kurang cool. I wanted to enter MRSM too since I got straight A's fro my PMR but mum did not let me because I was having some health problem which shouldn't be disclose here kerana sangat memalukan.

Basically we have been growing up in a same pattern just that Faiza is naughtier, rebellious and independant version of her.

Back to the liking of pink, now both of us like pink, just that saya lebih suka the one yang lebih striking and she likes something softer. Ye lah, saya kan berani sikit. But as we grew up, now my sister is the one who likes to follow what I wear such as clothes, style, shades, bags etc. Cuma selalunya aku yang sakit hati, sebab since I am just a student, I will buy cheap stuffs but she will buy my dream stuffs. Disebabkan badan saya yang kecik dan sekeping, I can never borrow her clothes.

She's my one and only sister, and I am glad of the similiarities that we have been sharing.

p/s: not into pink anymore but still anything in pink will look better!

Dia sudah bertunang la!

Today, marked one of the important events happened this year. My studymate (Yan) is engaged. Mind you, she is 21, and I am defeated by that. Hahah! Well to her, her parents might not be worrying about anything because she's a smart a*s. She doesn't have to study hard in achieving excellent results, unlike me, I have to study really hard, or else I will end up being a loser.

I am really hapy for her, and I hope this is the right decision. I am very proud knowing someone who is younger than myself making a big decision like this. kikiki. Saya mungkin masih belajar tentang diri sendiri dan masih lagi mencari-cari sambil belajar tentang apa erti hidup.



I know, I've met the one who has everything that I've been wanting, and we do have many similiarities with some minor contradictions, but still, I am on my learning process.

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I admit I have been cranky on my way to classes these lately. The fact that students are lack of courtesy. Somehow I wonder, is it really hard to give ways to girls, hold the door for friends or strangers instead of banging the door right on the face? To reach classes, I have to queue oh wait, queue is not the right word, maybe "berkerumun" is the right word, and it can be really frustrating that most of the students will not queue but they push themselves inside the elevator without considering those who came earlier. #*%&*!

Ok. Apa sedang aku bebelkan ini? Tidak mengapa. Lets not be like them. Morons.

p/s: Soon when I have the time, I will change this layout. Faiza? Black? It doesn't rhyme. Saya sendiri rasa sedikit janggal dengan warna ini.

zzzZZzz

I am sleep deprived!

This whole week has been a tough week for me. Tests and assignments submission. Bluergh. I do look like a walking zombie right now. Final examination is next week! Scary. Wish me luck people.

5 minutes off.

Snap!

I am taking 5 minutes off. There will be a quiz tomorrow which doesn't sound like a quiz after all. Well, sorry for deleting my previous posts. Firstly, it was nothing personal really. I just want to get rid of certain entries.(huh?) But really. I just think that certain entries shouldn't be there. Certain pictures should be removed, and those explosive ones too, shouldn't be there.

I am really sorry. That was really immature of me blogging on my anger and letting the whole world informed about that. Problems should be solved personally right? Rather than letting it out here.

Secondly, I just think that my grammar is getting bad. Sudah lama tidak membaca buku. Majalah-majalah apatah lagi. Even my vocabs are bad too.

Thirdly, I just want to get rid of certain pictures. Malas sungguh mahu lihat satu-persatu. Time consuming, I'd rather delete everything.

Lastly, mungkin saya sedang sibuk belajar dan juga bercinta. Hihihihi.

Malas mahu fikir.

I've just erased my past.

nyehhh