Wishlist.

Yeah I know people are busy drooling over BBs. I was before but BB is just not for me. I don't want to be too attached with the bbm, facebook etc. I just need a device that includes my music, games and movies that will accompany me when I am bored. I mean, now everytime I go out, I need to bring my phone, my iPod and camera besar malas nak bawak. So with iPhone is easy. Just one device and wallah!


A serious compact camera. But this is more to gatal-gatal purpose. Hehehe. But if tiada rezeki pun tak mengapa. Duit lebih baik simpan untuk masa depan.

yeah, a lappy that probability rosak sebab virus very low.

I need to work my ass out to purchase these things. Kan best kalau parents jenis spoil kan I mintak barang and dapat. : Tak apa, biar hidup susah sekarang. (sedapkan hati). Jadi kerja-kerja-kerja lah!

November Rain.

Hello earthlings!

I am currently enjoying my current freedom before my practical starts. Nasib baik ada kerja selain data entry, now can spend some time to learn playing some musical instruments. Just to keep this brain functioning!

Since days are cold and wet, nothing much of outdooor activities I can do. :( But fret not, hujan itu rahmat. :D

Here some of the pictures for last night's dinner. It was for our November babies!

Tooodles!~

Better half of me.

Today, marked our very 1 year anniversary! It feels like only last month I met him for the first time after 5 years of not seeing nor keeping in touch with each other. Thank you to Fb :)

Who knew I would end up with someone who is my bestfriend's brother's bestfriend. Who knew I would end up with this friend yang selalu baik hati while I was in Asasi UM hantarkan balik rumah. Last time budak lagi, I couldn't detect any prawns behind petai. I never knew that he would be mine. :)

Throughout this one whole year, we'd been through a lot. From cries to laughs. And he is the most understanding person that I've known. His existance completes my life. The fact that we have almost the same interest, from hobbies to music to our perception towards life; just made our relationship more interesting. The best relationship I've ever have. And he, being the nicest and awesome boyfriend and a friend, is the best I could ever wished for.

We can spend hours talking a bout life, and can also senyap for hours bila gaduh. gaduh besar kadang-kadang memang best. Hidup mesti ada drama!

So, we didn't really celebrate the anny, like giving cards, bracelet/rings and all that crap. Elleh, bukan kawin lagi pun. Just went out for a dinner at Tony Romas. Makan is the thing that I do best. Gambar pun tak ambil, again..bukan kawin lagi pun!

To me, it's not the celebration that matters. Really. Maybe I've changed a bit since I am with him. What is more important to me is just him. Knowing that he is always with me, makes his time for me and respects me. Celebration and all that crap don't mattter anymore. We've grown up right?

p/s : GG episode 8. The conversation between Serena and Blair waktu mereka bergaduh is the diggity yaall (statement Mia adik Reena)

Ive'never been this happy in relationship before. Alhamdulillah.

yeah, cheeks tu nampak glowing thanks to Benefit's Benetint! Anything from Benefit is just awesome!

I am still alive and kicking!

Hello earthlings!

Just done with my second last paper and one more to go!! Pls God help in facing this laziness of mine.

So nothing much these lately. But yeah, I've moved into a new room with an attached toilet. Mak saya kata senang nanti bila nak kahwin dah ada toilet terus. (yes! they have started to think about it tho I haven't!)

To Shikin Hambali : Mangkuk ayun punya sinki tuh I gagal utk mendapatkannya! sshhyte.

So now, the room is not yet decorated, I need some funds, and some time to think about it because for the time being, I am just as busy as a bee sitting for my second last final. (Yeah one more semester to go WITH examination and I'm off to go). So here are the pictures.

This is my old room. I've been in this room since I was 9! So I was emo la during the very first night sleeping in the new room. :( The old room actually lagi "serene" gitu, because it is facing pokok-pokok alongside the Jln Bahagia. Bila stress tengok tingkap. Malam-malam sometimes terdengar suara Aref bising-bising outside Tita's house.

Oh yea, a bit messy. Ignore it. :P

The roses! My mum pilihkan. So sweet la kadang-kadang.

So this is the new room. Colour tersilap pilih sebenarnya.Wanted something a bit reddish, and the wall is actually not thaaattt pink, but due to the reflection colour of purple, there you go, pink and purple. Nevermind, I can accept it. But within 2 years time, IF I'm getting married or something, I'll change the colour.

So Zack tercinta helped me angkat kan all the almari and semua benda. If tak memang tak larat. Thank you! My mum was a bit pelik, saying that Zack punya badan agak kecik but able to angkat everything. Elleh, sebab Faiza pun angkat sekali kut. :P

Well that's all for now. Later whenever I rajin, I'll blog again.

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Sometimes, we just have to be patience. Wishes and hopes don't come in an instant. Alhamdulillah. My prayers have been answered. Let's just hope it will last. And more years to come! Amin.

Neglected place.

Hello earthlings.

I keep dragging myself to update this blog. Yes. Because I have a life to share with the real world. This blog seems to be quite unproductive.

Last week, I unintentionally broke my watch. Cermin depan dia totally pecah.The pink big wrist watch given from someone from the past. I kept wearing the watch, with the reason of; other watches are out of batteries. Nothing personal, nothing. Was thinking of buying a new watch, but I'd rather save the money for rainy days.

Finally, I can't wear it anymore. It's a sign to me that, when something is not totally mine, even though it came from the past, have become a history, then I should not keep it.

I asked Z before, wether it is O-K for me to wear it, and he said it should be no problem. But as I was thinking, if I were to put myself in his shoes, I wouldn't let my partner wears stuff the ex gave, knowing my level of jealousy is quite ..-through infinity and beyond~ So now, the watch should be at its right place; not to be seen or simply throw it.

Coping up with things

Hello earthlings

Seems like Faiza doesn't really have time to update her blog right? Ive been quite busy with open houses, house cleaning due to the renovation, tests as well as coping up with things that I don't really want to cope with ; dramas.

Sometimes I wonder, is it true ex-s can't be friends? Well for me, I can always be friends with them. But friends should be treated as normal friends you know, like normal conversation and everything's normal. But if your ex keep on bringing up the history, the fact that both of you had been together and what ever shit that is, I don't really think the ex has anything interesting to talk about, tak get over lagi pun boleh jadi, and your ex a total emoloser. So my opinion is, we can always be friends but it depends on the attitude.

Another that is, I've always opt for ignorance for I know ignorance is bliss. Truly blissful. Why does it so wrong for me, not to entertain everyone for I think it is always best for me to mind my own business? It is funny how we have reached the age of 20 somethings but failed to act like adults. I am totally tired of these stupid cakap belakang thing, hasut batu api thing. Because of this, I will keep on stereotyping people who came from this "state" tho I am sewaktu of the state. I am not a perfect person either, but at least I mind my own business and tak melaga-lagakan friendship orang.

I never knew that being a "stylish" person; as claimed by the person is the reason I have more friends. Mazhab mana pula ini. Tak layan salah, jadi stylo pun salah. Kepam la kamu ni.

Sorry for the emo post. Suka hati wa la, ini page wa.

Selamat Hari Raya!

Selamat Hari raya to One and All! I know this is a bit late, but thousand apologies for any mistakes done, words that might have torn certain hearts, and actions that have offended certain bodies.

So how's raya? Mine is great as always. Raya has always been good if the 1st of Syawal is celebrated at Kampung. Everthing is still tradionally done, the tradition is still there and most importantly, the get together that brings 20 families into 1 house in a day!

Banyak family means banyak kinds. Even tho kids might "menjengkelkan" aku, but senang cerita, tak payah layan ah. Honestly, I don't like kids no matter how cute they can be. But they just annoy the hell out of me. I am sorry kids, hidayah dan petunjuk untuk saya menyukai anda-anda semua belum sampai. hihi. At least, even tho I dislike kids, it is good enough that I am not the type who would scold them. Tak baik tau marah anak orang, cuba kalau suatu hari kita ada anak, orang marah anak kita, kecik ati mak!

Later I will upload my raya pix! Attended Didi's house and melantak lamb banyak gila. Rumah Reena melantak soto banyak juga.

Bila nak kawin?

I am sure, most of us had once or trillion times been asked about that question. Allrighty, I get the point; when we reached the age where most of us have successfully gain our degree or diplomas and what not.

But how I wish people are more sensetive upon this stupid question.

I've always been asked " bila nak kawin?". Dalam hati rasa annoyed/irritated/fcuked up tuhan aja lah yang tahu. Because to me, I feel annoyed because it is clear to them that I am still studying. Tolonglah paham, duit pun takde, study pun berhingus lagi, financially unsecured to afford the living of post-marriage. And another thing is that, I know at this point, if I were forced to get married by my parents, I'll say why not?

But, I know marriage is a huge step. I have to get myself well-prepared. I do not want to be isteri nusyuz, ini tak pandai itu tak pandai, cakap ngan husband kasar-kasar, or after kawin baru nak start enjoy. Berdosa besar suami nanti, cukup lah sekarang ayah sendiri dah tanggung dosa gua. Getting married sounds fun and "in-thing" now, but please, do not ask people who are still struggling for a piece of a degree certificate. I am totally annoyed. No degree, no marry curry maggi mee.

I have to ensure that I am financially secured first, got myself a Miu Miu bag using my OWN money. Taknak la pula dah kawin nanti beli sanitary pad pun mintak duit laki ye dok?

Just my 2 sen. For I want people to stop asking.

We are 10 months!

We are 10 months!

We first met after 5 years of not meeting each other on the

11th of August 2008.

Well I really do not know how to narrate my timelines, but all I know is my life has always been better with his existance.

;)

This Ramadhan.

A self-note to myself-this Ramadhan might be the last Ramadhan for myself. Even for everyone. For we do not know how long God is allowing us to breathe. So I keep telling myself to make full use of this Ramadhan to repay, do good deeds, spend most of the nights reciting, zikir and praying. Not trying to portray myself as a lil-goodie-two-shoes here, but as a Muslim, I think all of us are responsible to keep reminding each other right? Regardless of who you are and where you come from.

I keep feeling sorry for myself after I missed some of my Tarawih prayers. Why did I chose lepak over Tarawih? My bad. What if I wouldn't be here next year? What if next year I broke my both legs. We will never know. We plan everything, but He decides.

I chose Restaurant City and Country Story over night prayers. My bad again. When will I ever learn from my mistakes? When?

Selamat menyambut Nuzul Quran btw. Bersama-sama lah kita menginsafkan diri sendiri. This last thread of Ramadhan, lets do more good deeds.

For the current being, I should concentrate more on myself. Mind my own business. Talk less with people unless closest friends,because words; if not used properly might torn people's heart. Be nice to everyone and do not be afraid of losing anyone. I thank Siti Mazalina for this wonderful advices. You never know how much I owe you and I will always seek for your advice.
I love you. May Allah protect you and your whole family.

Sorry for any wrongdoings to anyone. We might not know when is our last day.

Addiction

I am currently addicted to Restaurant City. Lagi teruk bila whenever I am outside, jalan-jalan tengok restaurants pun boleh ada idea nak decorate bagaimana. Bunyi macam loser. Hihihi.

Anyway, just to get rid of the total addiction to Restaurant City, I tried beading!

So here is the 1st attempt.

Baju kurung tah bila tah nak pandai jahit. :

History may not be repeated again.

This is not going to be good entry, but I need to blog about it anyway.

Title is a direct translation of Newboyz's song, back then. Sejarah mungkin berulang. I remember when I was in highschool, loathed the boy band, decided to make a fool out of their song. But look at tomok now, he proved to us that he really can sing! But that's not what I am trying to share here. So here goes.

We all been through our ups and down, break ups and hook ups, hating and loving, stumbling and rising steadily again. We all went to the phases before.

What we, or I know is that, what is past will remain in the past. But what I dont comprehend here is, why is the past keep haunting this particular person? Why is friendship tied with anyone else can be such a big problem to this person? Why are you trying to break people's friendship?Maybe you are afraid of your-so-called-good-image to be jeopordized?

Stop thinking as if youre the nicest thing on earth. Stop looking for friends when you need anything to borrow but when you dont need anything to borrow you just talk cock.

And stop thinking as if you know me very well.

Bulan Remdan.

Sorry for the lack of updates! I don't feel like blogging on a frequent basis anymore. Reason being is that I am quite occupied. So Ramadhan has been such a great holy month. Everynight during Tarawih I have this feeling that I don't want this month to end. Nice, sunny but not that hot weather, less hazy, finally the air is clear! Cumulusnimbus clouds can be seen beautifully everywhere!

The Ramadhan bazaar in the evening is one of the reasons why we love Ramadhan. But the sad thing is that, some of the kuih-muih's that we bought tak sedap. I wonder, ikhlas kah mereka ini berniaga? So I decided to make all the kuih-muihs by myself. (my mum is happy with that). Just now she told my sister "Tak payah la beli kuih kat pasar, tak sedap, kuih yang Ijah buat lagi sedap". So terharu okay.

My house is currently macam harewire! On renovation, house is extended, with another room complete with a bathroom (for me! for me! yay!), kitchen is also extended. So rumah sangat dusty and sandy (seperti di tepian pantai). I should get more ideas from ShikinHambali then for my room. btw Shikin, don't forget the KomputerMuzik!

So that is all. Be good during Ramadhan. During Ramadhan, it's good to kurangkan bercakap, so we offend people less. Hence, tambahkan pahala dengan tidak menyakitkan hati orang lain. :)

Apa di atas.

Hello earthlings.



1.Sorry for the lack of blog entries these lately. I've been quite occupied, catching up with studies and working. Juggling me time between the 2. It is not that easy. Plus, I am quite and out-going person that it is quite hard to sacrifice on that matter too!



2.Ezlyn is flying back to Ireland this Thursday, going to miss her a lot. :( I had such a wonderful time during her presence in our hot and humid country.



3.Attended Nad's engagement this afternoon. Can't wait for the big day yay yay yayyy!



4. It has been a year Zack and I been going out. The first one was on 11.August. Time flies like a missile. We've been through ups and downs together. Let's just pray for more wonderful years together to come. Amin. I love you. always. (InsyaAllah).<--well, kita taktau apa akan jadi in the future kan?



5. Selamat menyambut Ramadhan to all Muslims!

Mahu menangis la macam ini.

Poster taken from Alif's fb. The pix was taken during the trip to spore last year. Nak nangis terharu. She's made it! With Incubus and all the big names! Mars Volta grrrrr....

Frown.

Something isn't right these lately. I don't really know what it is. Even if I managed to know any, I don't even know how to explain.

More to feeling down. Mostly down.

Study and working.

For some who do not know, for the time being, I am working and studying at the same time. In the morning I go to classes, in the evening I go to work.

Working in the evening as stated here is not like what that came across you mind just now (yeah, I can see it coming! i can see it!. Nope, I don't work as a bartender, GRO (sebab the other day during class, I was telling Rose " weh aku keja mlm ni, eh apesal bunyi mcm keje pelacur je ni?". ngehehe.

I continue working with the doctor, since they called me up and asked me a favor to continue so I thought, why not?

Honestly, it is tiring. But there is always a good side of it. I earn extra income, my loan money can be invested into somewhere profitable for my future,(IELTS, ACCA or wedding), time will not be wasted and being busy.

During working hours, I can still study since Doctor has been encouraging me to do so. And now, my studies is not affected at all. Alhamdulillah. In fact, I have a better time management!

Apart from that, I learned a lot. Working with doctor. You know that doctor is always associated with giving humanity services to the community? Now I learned more when it comes to meeting people, how to communicate maturely, treat the elderly respectfully and so on.

So when people asked me " why of all places you go and work at clinic?"

Maybe my reason being so is that myself is quite random once in a while, I'd like to try something different than my very own profession. It's fun ya know! Since I am still studying, I can try different things knowing I'll be sitting around my desk with a full set of company's account to deal with in the future.

:) I am tremendously happy with who, what and how I am today. Alhamdulillah.

Al-Fatihah.

A month ago, we were mourning upon MJ's death. And now, Yasmin Ahmad.

Al-Fatihah to a soul who had touched so many lives with such beautiful creations of adverts and movies. Someone who is a colourblind when it cames to race, someone who has been trying to explain to the our nation that racism doesn't do any good.

It seems like people who are colourblind like MJ and Yasmin Ahmad have gone.

May Allah S.W.T will always bless your beautiful soul. Amin.

We are all one. God created us with different colours but we are meant to know and mingle with each other. So stop being a racist.

2 weeks ago.

this is what we call self-transformation. Nice huh. I am officially a frog!

Boleh tahan.

Working +part time = hell tiring!

But all in all, it has been great. At least I am not wasting my time. Well, got to make some change in my life you see.

p/s: Aref, aku rasa macam dah mula rindu kau siot. Shimoneeehh!

So I was thinking, does ending up studying in a so-called-100-top uni can make you a better person? A better graduate, a better employee and a also a better citizen? Studying in Harvard or Oxford itself doesn't guarantee your placement in the top companies either.

I hope next time, those people who are just totally "air-headed" will think twice before leaving some nasty comments anywhere. Do some research, reflect on yourselves before you even dared to type your stupid fingers on the keyboard.

Sampai bila nak mundur? Nak pergi tempat semua nak gempak je, tapi pemikiran kolot. At least, kawan saya independent tau?

Busy Bee.

Classes in the morning, working in the evening. Something to keep me busy and distracted but keeping my attention on school stuffs. Ahh. It feels good, knowing there will be still be cash coming in.

Nyeh nyeh.

I am happy. Alhamdulillah.

This; my friend.

This; is a friend of mine. We've been friends since standard 1. We have gone through all phases in growing up together. Doing fun things together. We don't meet up everyday, and we are totally cool about it. We don't have to make a special invitation to hang out, we will just call or text each other when we have the time, and invite ourselves. Not being a thick-skinned person, but doing things the adult's way. So it's easier this way.



We are afraid of cats and we had an attempt to overcome it by adopting a kitten that we found at the back of her house when we were ten. Sadly, the cat ran away, even though we fed the cat named Combi by us with expensive cat foods. So, until now, we are still afraid of cats.



She's naughtier than me. But, never went over the limit. She knows her limits. And so do I. Basically both of us are quite the same, except she's a cooler and a calmer version of me.



When I am alone, and I feel like laughing over certain funny things, I will call her and laugh, and that is all. Just to share the laughs together. Even when we are angry too.


It's weird.


So far, she's the only one that I've been close to, for such a long time.


So what about yours? Appreciate your childhood friends, you never know what you have until they are gone.

Attn: Nadiah Zainol

OK or not?

Filling the last thread of the break.

My so callled contract with Dr Ian Chin has ended last 2 weeks. The first day of my unemployment day was boring. Since I have nothing to do, and nothing to keep in mind that at certain this time and that time I need to work. It was sad tho, working with him was fun. Being a devout Christian himself, he fills his free time when patients are not in with bible reading. It makes me feel ashamed of myself as a Muslim for not reciting the Quran during my free time. *shame*




That evening of my last day at work, his wife, Aunty Sally came to the clinic to wave as the last goodbye and we had some interesting conversation. Both Doctor and his wife have just converted their beliefs into Christianity. The wife knows more about the prophet that I do. Again, I feel ashamed of myself.


Now, I am kind of miss working with them. You see, no matter what religion we are in, if we really deepen our knowledge about it, being faithful, and doing things according to the God's path, we all will end up being nice people. Same goes to Sir Autar Singh, my lecturer.


A few days after not working at the clinic, Shalia offered me to help her on her 12,000 pieces of cupcakes. Ordered by her loyal customer for her wedding doorgifts. The work for the mass production started on Sunday and ended on last Thursday (Alhamdulillah). But I helped her until Wednesday since I had to make my journey to K.Terengganu which will be explained later in this content. Helping Shalia was another reason I gained another kgs. Lunch, tea time, dinner. Semua sedap memang tak dapat la nak makan satu round aje.





On Thursday, I went to K.Terengganu all by myself naik bas. Stayed at my aunties house. Hari-hari melantak budu. Terbaik doh. Now I feel a bit connected with my aunty and cousins, I shall make that as my yearly routine. When I was in Shalia house, I kept telling her aunties that tho I am fully darah tganu, but I more to anak pahang. Then they said, "orang pahang selalu gelap-gelap la, awak putih, awak tganu". Then when I arrived at K.Tganu bus station, most of them putih-putih macam yang Shalia's aunties mentioned. But still, I am an anak Pahang. Got back from tganu on Saturday.


Today which is Sunday, we headed to Genting highlands (Fifi, Afiq, Zack, Farrah, Syed). We had fun like always. Akashah couldn't join us, he as something came up. It is so sad to see that the theme park has failed to maintain the place. They should upgrade the place, build more exciting rides, clean the building more often. (based on the money they get everyday from visitors!) Sad..sad.






OK. I don't feel like typing anymore. Tomorrow class dah start yaaaayyyyyy!!!!!! Back to the norm.

I am not proud of.

Kenapa Melayu susah nak maju?

Lembab.
Pemalas.
Memilih kerja.
Manja sangat
Tau nak lepak aje
Dah besar pun perangai macam budak sekolah menengah.
Buat apa-apa pun, sekadar melepaskan batuk di tangga, then merungut je lebih. Manja sangat
To hell this "ketuanan" principle. It won't bring the society anywhere.

Wake up Malays! We are so left behind. Sudah-sudahla tuh being proud of this malaise malays' ketuanan.

Sorry for this harsh content. I guess I am just too frustrated with my own race that I have become annoyed with almost everything.

Kadang-kadang.

Kadang-kadang penulisan seperti ini mungkin perlu.
Kadang-kadang hati tidak dapat lagi menahan.

Beginilah,
Suka hati kau lah apa kau nak buat.
Kutuklah banyak mana kau mahu, caci lah sebanyak mana yang kau mampu,
Gelakkanlah, sindirlah mereka sebanyak mana yang kau mahu,
Kerana aku sudah tidak mahu masuk campur lagi.
Kau mengata meraka, tidak sedarkah kau bahawasanya kau juga dua kali lima?

Beginilah kawanku,
Aku bukan seperti tikus, di hadapan tuan rumah mencicit lari,
Walhal di belakang tuan rumah, habis makanan dalam robok dikunyah hingga bersepah.
Aku tidak suka, maka aku tunjuk. Biarlah orang mahu kata apa.

Jangan pula cari aku meminta sesuatu, kerana bila aku tiada apa-apa, kau di mana?

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Maaf, bahasa ibunda aku juga bersepah!

Air Mata Rasulullah SAW

Something to share with you guys
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AIRMATA RASULULLAH SAW... Tiba-tiba dari luar pintu terdengar seorang yang berseru mengucapkan salam. 'Bolehkah saya masuk?' tanyanya. Tapi Fatimah tidak mengizinkannya masuk, 'Maafkanlah, ayahku sedang demam', kata Fatimah yang membalikkan badan dan menutup pintu.

Kemudian ia kembali menemani ayahnya yang ternyata sudah membuka mata dan bertanya pada Fatimah, 'Siapakah itu wahai anakku?' 'Tak tahulah ayahku, orang sepertinya baru sekali ini aku melihatnya,' tutur Fatimah lembut. Lalu, Rasulullah menatap puterinya itu dengan pandangan yang menggetarkan. Seolah-olah bahagian demi! bahagian wajah anaknya itu hendak dikenang.

'Ketahuilah, dialah yang menghapuskan kenikmatan sementara, dialah yang memisahkan pertemuan di dunia. Dialah malaikatul maut,' kata Rasulullah, Fatimah pun menahan ledakkan tangisnya. Malaikat maut datang menghampiri, tapi Rasulullah menanyakan kenapa Jibril tidak ikut sama menyertainya.

Kemudian dipanggilah Jibril yang sebelumnya sudah bersiap di atas langit dunia menyambut ruh kekasih Allah dan penghulu dunia ini.
'Jibril, jelaskan apa hakku nanti di hadapan Allah?', tanya Rasululllah dengan suara yang amat lemah. 'Pintu-pintu langit telah terbuka, para malaikat telah menanti ruhmu. 'Semua syurga terbuka lebar menanti kedatanganmu,' kata Jibril. Tapi itu ternyata tidak membuatkan Rasulullah lega, matanya masih penuh kecemasan. 'Engkau tidak senang mendengar khabar ini?', tanya Jibril lagi. 'Khabarkan kepadaku bagaimana nasib umatku kelak?' 'Jangan khawatir, wahai Rasul ! Allah, aku pernah mendengar Allah berfirman kepadaku: 'Kuharamkan syurga bagi siapa saja, kecuali umat Muhammad telah berada di dalamnya,' kata Jibril. Detik-detik semakin dekat, saatnya Izrail melakukan tugas. Perlahan ruh Rasulullah ditarik..

Nampak seluruh tubuh Rasulullah bersimbah peluh, urat-urat lehernya menegang. 'Jibril, betapa sakit sakaratul maut ini.' Perlahan Rasulullah mengaduh. Fatimah terpejam, Ali yang disampingnya menunduk semakin dalam dan Jibril memalingkan muka.

'Jijikkah kau melihatku, hingga kau palingkan wajahmu Jibril?' Tanya Rasulullah pada Malaikat pengantar wahyu itu. 'Siapakah yang sanggup, melihat kekasih Allah direnggut ajal,' kata Jibril.. Sebentar kemudian terdengar Rasulullah mengaduh, karena sakit yang tidak tertahankan lagi.
'Ya Allah, dahsyat nian maut ini, timpakan saja semua siksa maut ini kepadaku, jangan pada umatku.' Badan Rasulullah mulai dingin, kaki dan dadanya sudah tidak bergerak lagi. Bibirnya bergetar seakan hendak membisikkan sesuatu, ! Ali segera mendekatkan telinganya. 'Uushiikum bis shalati, wa maa malakat aimanuku' 'peliharalah shalat dan peliharalah orang-orang lemah di antaramu.'

Diluar pintu tangis mulai terdengar bersahutan, sahabat saling berpelukan. Fatimah menutupkan tangan di wajahnya, dan Ali kembali mendekatkan telinganya ke bibir Rasulullah yang mulai kebiruan.
'Ummatii,ummatii,ummatiii?' - 'Umatku, umatku, umatku' Dan, berakhirlah hidup manusia mulia yang memberi sinaran itu. Kini, mampukah kita mencintai sepertinya? Allahumma sholli 'ala Muhammad wa baarik wa salim 'alaihi
Betapa cintanya Rasulullah kepada kita.

NB: Kirimkan kepada sahabat-sahabat muslim lainnya agar timbul kesadaran untuk mengingat maut dan mencintai Allah dan RasulNya, seperti Allah dan Rasulnya mencintai kita.

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Thank you Rose for sending me this.
A good friend will always remind you of Allah s.w.t.

Stinky beans & budu.

Stinky beans. Guess what does it means? It means Petai. Yes my dear students. It's petai. It's the smelly yet so sedap beans. Even more delicious if we dip with Budu, belacan or tempoyak and eat them with rice.

But according to my gastronomical philosophy, Budu can always get along with any foods. Be it roti, mee goreng, nasi lemak, nasi kerabu apetah lagi and to cut long story short, I can eat budu with anything. Maybe one fine day I will eat budu with spaghetti and sushi too!)

Maybe that is the only Terengganu thing that has been planted inside my soul ever since I was small. I love budu. I eat every types of sambal, but budu will always be on top of the list. With this amount of budu that I've been dipping through out my 24 years of living, I wonder when can I actually speak in Terengganu dialecs and I wonder when can I actually get along with them. the only Terengganu's genes that I have; kuat makan budu, pale and freckled complexion, and kebiasaan towards the sea water (masa kecik duk main tepi pantai, pergi pulau, berenang and snorkeling dari darat sampai tengah laut, kejar penyu bertelur and korek umang-umang were the normal activities when I was small). Oh shytes, these activities might get me caught red -handed by the WWF!

Bila dah tua ini ( I like to refer myself as tua instead of dah besar; reminds me of something), relatives semua pergi menyeberang ke pulau, I have to stay at home, working out for my future plans.

Back to the petai=stinky beans issue. Don't you think the English translation of this "salad" is very funny. I found it in the NST newspaper today. Theheheh. So maybe after this, if I were to jot some ink in the autograph book, under the subtopic of favourate foods, I might write it like this;

FAVE FOODS: Stinky beans masak pedas (mak buat)

So now, I am thinking of translating budu into english. It might be "rotted fish paste". Or "rotted anchovies paste". Wahahaha!!!!

English is fun! (say it in Kim Kard's tone).

Pesta Makan-makan.

Farrah has just moved into a new house. So she organized a very small makan-makan just among us. So each of us masak different recipes. Faiza buat corned-beef potato je, Fifi baked some s'mores, Afiq buat Fettucine, Farrah buat fried rice pedas baik punya, Zack basuh pinggan and Kashah buat lemak. (mati aku kalau dia baca)

We have decided that Sunday will be our hari malas sedunia.(ini sirius!). Zack jadi lagi malas la sebab the whole week dia busy kerja for PMI but still kene buli basuh pinggan.

ghey. Pity mr.bf slalu kene molested.

I still couldn't get over Gigi's performance so I spent the whole evening googling on Dewa Gede Budjana.(Gigi's lead guitarist). I admire how he strums his guitar and I can see that he is very passionate about it. Saya rasa dia boleh nampak kut saya tengok dia main guitar dari bawah sambil mulut saya ternganga. And his custom made guitar too. Awesome!





ps: during their performance, i couldnt capture some pictures using my camera because batt kong. Aku ni, tak batt kong, memory card takde. I've been very clumsy these days I don't know why? Some part of my brain has been malfunctioning. I've been missing a lot tho, not only that, I've missed the oppurtunity to capture some pix of Once and Ahmad Dhani's butts (grrr) while at the backstage. During my HK trip too, my memory card dah full. Something has gone wrong with me man!

PMI 3

I attended Pesta Malam Indonesia 3 yesterday. Drove all the way from Kj to Bukit Jalil which I thought jauh but surprisingly it took only 15 minutes.

Enjoyed the concert. 5 Indonesians' bands performed. I have to say I enjoyed the most seeing Gigi's performance. Armand has a very powerful stage performance. He was able to entertain the audience with his wit and talent. Gila llhhhooo!

I was there to see Dewa19 as usual lah. Ingatkan nak menggila macam last 2 years kat Dewa concert tapi dah tua bai, jadi tak dapat nak terkinja-kinja. (lagi pun banyak akak-abang TM yang semua my sister's friends). The 1st 10 minutes of Dewa's performance I was in front of the stage, but after that Zack suruh pergi naik belakang stage, and tengok Dewa perform kat atas stage(yang kat khemah atas stage), more comfortable but duk tengok Once and Ahmad Dhani aje le. Mantap juga.

To conclude, I enjoyed it. Seronok bai pergi concert pastu dapat vip access boleh makan dan duduk dalam air-conditioned tent. kalau NoDoubt punya concert dapat passes macam ni memang lemak!