I appreciate my boyfriend

Hello earthlings!

Exam is approaching yet I haven't started anything. *sigh* I am really scared of not getting good results this coming exam. Like seriously wey, PWC, KPMG, E.Y are quite tough to get my butt in.

I keep telling myself to stay positive, to work hard but somehow the laziness just hit me. nyeh. Seeing mr.boyfriend is studying hard and working his as* out doing his research, I am still here not doing anything but bullying him. Honestly, selalu rasa segan dengan dia. He keeps saying "study study kata nak 4.0 (mmg susah kut, just motivational factor)" and I will end up doing stupid faces to him.

Somehow I just do not know how to thank him for every single thing he had done to me. I have to say that this is the best relationship I've ever had. I am so grateful to meet the nicest person. (semua gadis akan ckp begini pasal bf mereka). Not only he is nice, he is also likeable by friends and he respects my friends kerana dia tak pernah buat lawak yang akan buat my friends terasa.

Looking at me, I am not being a good girlfriend to him. Reasons:

• Selalu malas nak call dia
• Selalu malas nak reply msg dia padahal dia yang bayar bill.
• Selalu tidur dalam kereta while he is driving
• Selalu buat muka kat dia
• Selalu bad mood
• Selalu merajuk
• Selalu tertido while talking on the phone before sleep
• Mengigau masa ckp phone tu tak payah cakap lah kan
• Selalu menyusahkan dia
• Selalu tak tengok dia perform sebab banyak kerja. And kalau ada Aref and Zana or Fifi ke teman baru pergi. Bukan apa, malu banyak lah nak pergi.

But he has always been the superb boyfriend to me. Reasons;

• Always bukakkan pintu for me, pintu shopping mall ke, pintu kereta ke, segala pintu. That sometimes kita selalu main kejar-kejar sebab saya sendiri berebut nak bukak pintu untuk diri sendiri.
• Usually kalau lepak with my friends, and tiba-tiba kerusi meja tak cukup untuk my friends, he will be the 1st one yang akan pergi ambilkan kerusi/meja, bukan pekerja kedai makan.
• Kadang-kadang saya pun dengki kerana dia layan kawan-kawan saya macam dia layan girlfriend dia. Tapi nasib baik dia tak gatal.
• Tak pernah take opportunity tengok other girls/boobs, be it in front of me or behind my back. While Faiza always take the opportunity tengok laki lain and stare at women's boops.(saya bukan gay please cuma agak teruja saiz yang magnificient)
• If tengah hujan, dia selalu menyusahkan diri dia payungkan my head with his hands padahal sayang pakai tudung kut, kepala kena hujan InsyaAllah tak jadi apa-apa.
• He is the most understanding guy. My bestfriend, my studymate, my partner in-crime (after Fifi), my gossip partner, my ensyclopedia. He has the nicest heart. Malu tengok diri sendiri.
• Tal pernah penat layan saya tapi saya selalu penat nak jumpa dia. jahat kan ?

I need to overcome this. I need to be a good girlfriend. I know now that I am willing to do anything just to keep him.

Kadang-kadang terfikir, mengapa tak jumpa dia dari dulu haaaaa?

Ok la, this entry is quite jiwang tangkap leleh bai.